| [WIP] Ma Bling!!! |
04March26 |
| [ | Tags | | | art, yapping | ] |
| [ | currently in |
: | My Den | ] |
| [ | i feel |
: |  blank | ] |
Here's a dumb sketch of a ferret dude because why not! Also, ibis paint jumpscare, lulz... I've finally got my Photoshop control panel, and it's fucking awesome; I'll take a picture tomorrow since I'm going to bed now! ‼(•'╻'• )꒳ᵒ꒳
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| Ah, So Silly!!! |
02March26 |
| [ | Tags | | | vent, yapping | ] |
| [ | currently in |
: | My Den | ] |
| [ | i feel |
: |  accomplished | ] |
I've finally got to about 4200+ words on my dissertation after like forever, and I'm quite proud of myself for locking in today! :D Right now, I'm making a bunch of icons for myself and watching Tales of Herding Gods since I'm bored; first icon turned out meh but the second one I'm currently on is actually goated!!! I'll upload it as soon as I'm done, hehe!!! <3 Last week, I rambled to one of my mates about duskwalker (an edgy vampire demon race I invented; DON'T STEAL!!!) lore and like the overall worldbuilding surrounding my characters n' shit... I sounded insane ngl, lmao. I updated my site with some random bits here and there, just so I don't make it seem like I've abandoned it -______-
In more serious news, it seems like every pharmacy in my area are out of stock of EpiPens; WHICH IS CRAZY!!! I've been waiting for this refill for over two years now, and I feel like I've barely made any progress... Like this shit's vital since I have a pretty bad nut allergy and can't take any risks! >:[ Healthcare in this country is heading downhill for real, people!!!
That's all! Bye! |
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| Psyche... (do dead dreams die so new ones happen?) |
02March26 |
| [ | Tags | | | future, life, message | ] |
| [ | i feel |
: |  Xistential dread | ] |
| [ | listening to |
: | My imaginations | ] |
| [ | currently in |
: | School | ] |
Howlongwazit since I rambled? I haven't updated my website in months! I was planning to get away from Nekoweb and go to a good hosting service... might as well get a nu domain name.
I just wanted to say that I might be on and off the Internet fo a while - I wanted to try and enjoy life for a bit, but I eventually find myself going back here to check on you guys o_o and the websites going to be on hiatus until my passion for HTML comes back ;_;
And I remember discussing about the "What-will-happen-to-us-in-five-mo-years" - I used to dwindle around art careers since it was one of my child dreams, but after that dreaded Sunday art school and more research, it kind of set to the side as a dead dream. By now after joining the special AP Biology class (funny enough, enrolled to get away from one friend and be with the smart people), mom's stories from her college years as a pharmaceutical major (funny ones like a feminine guy who made syrups for headaches with 60-70%? alcohol content and called it medicine-syrup-for-drunk-children), and other experiences from going outside, I'm doubting/ or convinced that I have potential to be in healthcare. Mom seemed to be worried about it but by now she supports it and told me that a job as a physiologist is great for me since I'm good at massaging (dunno if massaging is a skill required in that field of work, though).
My options are psychiatric nurse, physiotherapist, lab technician, or if it doesn't work out, art job or accountant. If death before graduation is also a free option I might consider that too (sarcasm)
See ya in 10 years in a hospital or a morgue. Nikita out 8D |
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| Stinkin’ deviantart |
01March26 |
Ughhh.. some guy called mario200ups was a massive creep to me as a kid, and I found him in the comment sections on angélica’s desktop and confronted him about it and blocked him. Apparently he reported my account for harassment ?? What a shitbag. So, if my deviantart is randomly taken down blame that fucken nob head |
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| My crush on the night sky |
28February26 |
| [ | i feel |
: |  ecstatic | ] |
| [ | listening to |
: | blind game again- kinya kotani | ] |
| [ | currently in |
: | bed... again... | ] |
Today my dad told us that venus, jupiter and mercury were visible in the night sky this night, and asked if we wanted to come see emm this evening, being the star-ophile i am i wuz like FUKK YESSSSSSSS
I just got back, and wow, it was so beautiful. I only got to see jupiter sadly, but, they just all look like stars, don't they? :)
I had my ipod on shuffle blasting full volume in my ear as me and my sister ran into and away from the waves for like two or three hours, (like.. you walk in deep and when the waves come close you start runnin away from the water) it was so fun!! I took some piccies, and we found a washed up shark, but I really can't be arsed to go thru the whole stinkin uploading process.
under the bright white light coming from the moon and stars the sea looked like a sheet of thin silver satin fabric,
and the sky was so beautiful, obviously.
did i mention the sky was beautiful?
Well. Unfortunately my camera was too SHIT to take photos of the stars, so they'll only live on in my memory.
anywayz, i just wanted to say that. it was great, and it's makin me wanna draw a beach scene with other people's characters. (I know i wanna draw Daichi, Juha and Blair at some point) err, when i feel like it
also, can someone explain to me what’s happening with dook sending nudes to a minor and then badly defending himself in like. A really suspicious way????
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| we are kangaroos and we are smelly |
28February26 |
| [ | Tags | | | life | ] |
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: | my den | ] |
| [ | i feel |
: |  tired | ] |
| [ | listening to |
: | some weird insect outside | ] |
this might be a bit of a shorter entry.. but i don't care. today (well, i guess yesterday considering it's 1 a.m.) was an interesting day sort of, i got to go to school a bit later today 'cause i needed to get my passport done since today (saturday) i'll be going to meet up with some family and stuff, i think i mentioned this in my last post? dunno. so anyway, blah blah blah, i'll be gone for the next week probably, though if you'd like you guys could probably still hit me up on deviantART, since i go on there on my phone every so often (but the mobile dA layout is so awful.. so i really wouldn't recommend getting in contact with me that way either). anyway, 'nuff about that. when i finally arrived at around.. 9 or 10-ish? we kinda just did random bullshit and after lunch we got to watch the.. whatchamacallit, the like.. spanish week goodbyes? i guess? i swear, there's a word for that, i'm just not sure which one.. anywho, there were a bunch of cool dances and stuff. um. i don't know. i'm TIRED.
oh yeah, my girlfriend also got me some really awesome gifts on thursday! kinda makes me feel bad i didn't give her as much as i wanted to on my part.. i'll make it up to her when i come back, somehow. zzz.. i'm kinda starting to doze off here..
i'm also hoping i can get the new journal layout done when i come back. i was hoping i could finish it today, but i was so busy procrastinating preparing that i didn't find the time to work on it :( but i do hope to get it done.. i really do...
anyway, going to sleep now. i'm REALLY tired. |
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| Please excuse my language I’m 14!!! |
27February26 |
| [ | Tags | | | may delete | ] |
| [ | currently in |
: | Livingroom floor | ] |
| [ | listening to |
: | Botnleðja | ] |
| [ | i feel |
: |  bitchy | ] |
OMG i’m going to lose my mind. I’m tired of having to stay up till like 1am because my mom’s mad at me or some shit I’ve gotten like four hours every night this whole week. like you’re on the phone with your friends giggling please stop bitching. Oh my God 😹 she acts like I don’t get up at 5am for my bus wow and she knows this. “ Will explain later later” my bad bro. I could 100% call dss and probably live in a better situation and most my friends say I should but like geez. it’s not just a staying up till 1 AM thing it’s other stuff but yay I love living in a hoarder home. Mold everywhere. even if I were to do that, I’d probably live with my Nana so I’d probably just get yelled at anyway. And case workers are scary. She did go to the “store” so I was able to take a bath, even though she was actually just driving around cuz she was pissed about something. My fault. I guess? I know I probably shouldn’t be complaining cause I’m kind of a worthless kid, but it’s just getting on my nerves. |
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| loving u, is ez cuz ur beautiful <3 |
27February26 |
| [ | i feel |
: |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | listening to |
: | Rob's project/loving you.. aka best song evar | ] |
| [ | currently in |
: | dads moldy flat (sorry papa) | ] |
Woot, at my dads house. he reorganised all the furniture in our bedroom.. for some reason? I like it so I aint complaining
Right now I'm pretty frustrated, I tried to download the pokemon jirachi movie and it turned out to be an hour of a still image! >:( I'm also trying to find a place to download Ren and Stimpy, Ren is so kyuuutte!! but of course I can't find anywhere. I complained about it to my girlfriend and she replied "maybe this is your sign to stop your pirating" and I was like "WHUUUTTT???!!! thats like telling a kitty to stop meowing!"
My science teacher changed the seating plan and sat me next to this group of 3 anime kids in the class, I didn't talk to them but it was very fun listening to their conversations, one girl had a sketchbook FULL of bdsm yaoi drawings and showed them off proudly, I laughed quietly to myself and she looked at me very offended, oops. she explained that she wasn't into bdsm, and only drew things like that because it "made her feel empowered".... so, you go girl, I guess.. X_X
Her drawings were pretty good, hetalia bdsm aside.
After school the hetalia bdsm chick did actually text me, (god knows how she found my number) and said "hey, I'm in some of your classes, whut yaois do you like?" I imagine she musta seen the I <3 yaoi pin on my pencil case and bag.
I obviously responded "gravitation, junjou romantica and finder" because those were the most mainstream ones that I like. (gravitation is obviously my all time fav though)
I think she's into the more modern manwha sort of style, though I refuse to read any yaoi made past 2008. She said she would read and watch gravitation and Junjou, so I cant wait to fangirl over those with her one day, even if she is... questionable.. ^o^'
Anouk OUT xxx and also here are some piccies I took dis week (spiky brown hair is me, gasp! face reveal! 80 WTF)
I'm so bored, sum1 hit me up on crosstalk, I'll be online for like 3 more hours and probably the whole of the weekend. hotyaoiaction@yahoo.com
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| Lonly Lonly |
25February26 |
| [ | listening to |
: | Wish- Ali project (such a good song) | ] |
| [ | i feel |
: |  rejected | ] |
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: | Bed, eatin toast | ] |
I hope you all don’t think less of me for posting this much, :< My half term week ended, so I’m back at school, Ugh. This made me realise how much my friends really don’t care about me. As soon as I got back to them at break time they started to talk about all the outings they went on in the half term and all the fun pictures they took, none of them I was invited to :( . As a joke I said “there’s always a thrio in a quadrio….” because that was an inside joke, but then they got slightly agressive and said “we only left you out because you get fucking overwhelmed and cry at everything!” And then they just laughed it off? also, I realised that whenever one of those three is last to gather up their stuff and leave they wait for them, but when I’m last to gather my stuff and leave they just walk off as a group without me. If that was in a movie I think that would have so much symbolism
they were having some conversation about some random boy at lunch time, and I think I was like, at least equally active in the conversation, and the next day one of my friends came to me and repeated the drama and I was like “.. yeah, I was there.” And she was like “oh really!? I didn’t notice, haha!”
Whenever I was sad they used to come to the little room in school I hid away in and cheer me up with corny jokes and bad doodles, but now they just leave me alone
Whenever I was sick or had to be left out of a hangout they bought me sweets and drinks from the corner shop and gave them to me at my house, but now they just leave me alone, awh. They’re all best friends with eachother, and I’m just some weird deviantart kid that follows them around D:
well, this loneliness might inspire me to make some more gift art or…. Group gift art! Woh! |
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25February26 |
| [ | listening to |
: | Rikkis swag | ] |
| [ | i feel |
: |  calm | ] |
| [ | currently in |
: | Sleeping place | ] |
I love my best friend and roblox and music and Layla and life I don’t wanna go to skool I’m so happy. I was calling with rikki and jaz joined and she’s a little bit scary 😢😢 but she wasn’t a meanie. She scares me a little 🤫🙀 AAAGG And me and rikkis played spray paint 🎨 yay. I need to sleep but I’m washing clothes Saaaagshshahahs I like botnleðja good band. Fart I need to work on my site and oc stuff uhHHgh yeah woooo idk if anyone had the link to my Su I post there a lot ok bye bye it’s 1am |
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| i am feeling very moeful |
24February26 |
| [ | Tags | | | life | ] |
| [ | i feel |
: |  geeky | ] |
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: | my dryer | ] |
| [ | currently in |
: | my den | ] |
woo! whaddup guys?! this week has been somewhat interesting; yesterday my braces were removed and this saturday i'm gonna leave the island for a bit to meet up with some family. i.. kind of forgot to make an entry for yesterday, so i hope this'll make up for it. like i said, i got my braces removed after like 4 years of having 'em, and i now have to wear retainers, to prevent my teeth from going back to being fucked up again.. which.. honestly? kind of suck even more than braces. at least you don't have to remove your braces every time you eat or brush your teeth. speaking of which.. damn, my gums are REALLY fucked up.. not in a weird falling apart kinda sense, more like they bleed from literally anything. guess that's a side effect from them being kinda untouched for such a long time. also, i'm working on a new journal layout right now 8D i really hate my current one so i hope this new one looks good. jeez, how did i manage to stay with that horrible layout for so long..? but i digress.
anywho, as a little heads-up, from saturday to god knows when (because my parents never told me..), i probably won't be online much, if at all. i doubt my parents will allow me to bring my laptop + the wi-fi where i'm going is REALLY bad, so even if i were allowed to, i probably wouldn't be able to connect to anything whatsoever. which sucks, considering how online i am most of the time, but oh well. i guess it could be good for me, being away from the internet for a little while and whatnot. and if i get bored of having shit connection, then at least i could play a link to the past on my shitty, off-brand, game boy look-alike that has a ton of totally not pirated games on it =) or maybe bring my travel sketchbook with me.. i dunno..
anyway, in other news, recently i've started to read Tank Girl and wow; it is a REALLY fun comic! i downloaded it on getcomics.org and i gotta say, i'm kinda hooked. also, Tank Girl's outfits are awesome and i'm totally stealing them for myself. w00. |
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| Bored, and traumatising story from yesterday |
24February26 |
| [ | currently in |
: | School :( | ] |
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: | The lonely Jew on christmas- South Park LOL | ] |
| [ | i feel |
: |  anxious | ] |
I’m in school right now, just escaped from maths class and am playing on the computers. Yesterday night, me and my 12yr old sister were loudly joking around in our bedroom, listing off every jrpg we know and deciding if all the characters in the games were gay or not. (If anyone was curious, the number one gayest is Sephiroth from final fantasy 7 and the straightest was Wakka from ffx)
this lasted for like two hours, and afterwards we heard a cough from our youngest sisters bunk bed that didn’t sound like any of our voices, we started freaking out until the voice said “it’s just me…” IT WAS OUR MOM. She was wide awake the whole time, in my sisters bed, listening to the entirety of our loud, retarded, gay, slightly inappropriate conversation. Why was she in my little sisters bed? I have no idea. But god, that was SCARY, and she hasn’t talked to us about it since. X_X |
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| Ringoningo |
21February26 |
| [ | i feel |
: | bored | ] |
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: | clear the air- mc drokz | ] |
err, I know I just posted but god I am so bored and Im going on a bit of a worldbuilding spree, and I got more backstory for ringo! if anyone cares.
so, up until he was 12 and sold to the facility, he went 2 the same skool as Ikari, but obviously he was only there for a year and very quiet and reserved (shocking) so they never got to know eachother. he was still a creepy pleb as a kid, don't worry LOL.
he never went outside and had a collection of dead ladybugs in a matchbox, because that's totally an important deet. his parents, as you could guess, don't really care about him very much and are very very poor to the point of almost being homeless so when offered to be payed big bucks to send him off to a a testing facility in the city they jumped at the chance. so, ends Ringo's calm home life.
he's injected with sleeping fluid, and when he wakes up he's in a very cheap looking barren sort of hospital setting, dis is tha W.P.R.C, the world peace research center, the doctors there are trying to research a way 2 put an end to unnecessary hatefulness and misery, but they go about their testing in unethical ways, keeping guinea pigs to inject their experimental chemicals and hormones in. (yes this is a sort of rip on animal testing, I hate animal testing so much)
over years the chemicals they inject into his brain just completely fuck him up, turning him into a dangerous impulsive nuisance to society, so they decide to euthanise him after an incident where he put a doctor's (Laleena's) life at risk.
he overheard them talking about it through the thin ass walls of his room, and not wanting to die, he ripped the metal bars off his window and jumped out, ran far away, snuck onto a train, traveled to another town (starlight town, where Ikari lives) and passed out in front of a tescos express.
the tesco express bit is VERY important OK? LOL
Drunk Ikari and his friend timmie hobbled down the street, found ringo lying there like a dying fish and carried him back to Ikari's place, the day after Ikari tried as hard as he could to kick ringo the fuck OUT but he would not budge, and ringo told ikari his dramatic sob story until he ended up being like "oh, whatever, you can crash here for a bit I guess" so from then on Ringo just started freeloading in Ikari's tiny apartment, all while the doctors, not wanting to be exposed for their shitty practices, go on a desperate manhunt for him before he can speak up.. err, this lore will probably change as time goes on, but this is just what I'm thinking up now.
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| I am breaking up with mahjong titans |
21February26 |
| [ | listening to |
: | whatever my sisters are playing on DDR hottest party | ] |
| [ | i feel |
: | annoyed | ] |
| [ | currently in |
: | bed (so extravagant) | ] |
Hi. as you can tell from the title I am pretty miserable because I lost a round of mahjong titans, anyway,
im at me dads house, and I was drinkin sum doctor pepper and I left the empty glass on my bedside table, my duvet brushed past it and it fucken BLEW UP and shattered EVERYWHERE . i screamed "dadddddd!!!!!! the glass broke!!" and while he was looking for the shards we realised that bedside table and literally everything around it is COVERED in mold. so yeh, I'm gonna be duvetless tonight.
I'm in the middle of talking with ang on msn, but she's cleaning her room now.. and i dont wanna distract her.. so i am making this outta boredom. curse you!
I'm trying to draw over this sketch I made on corel painter, but it keeps randomly switching my layer to the canvas layer so I draw directly on the photo. SO ANNOYING! ive traced over ikari's stupid face like 4 times now with the same problem happening each time. oohhh.... i gotta try get photoshop 7 to work. I also have firealpaca on here, hmn. now I kind of figured out how to use corel I dont really wanna switch. X_X
nyeh, anyway, I wanna rewatch cardcaptor sakura, for the 7th time, dat anime is just so me! especially the gayness. i luvvvvv toya x yuki!! one of my fav pairings.
oh yeah, today I went into town and got some cute smiley face stickers, and some ones mimicking zombie apocylpse signs. how do i spell that? does not matter LOL. i got an eevee plushie too.
ANOUK, OUT, YO!
ps. I got a tropical orange guppy and named her Burger King
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